AM I BACK?

Don't know for sure...

What I do know, is that I have missed talking out loud [typing] on here rather than have it running around in my head? After all this was supposed to be my diary to my family/friends...a sort of record of who I am/was without them needing to wonder after I die. Right now I have a 2 year gap that cannot be easily explained other than mostly eye problems making it too hard to read/type and other personal crap hitting the fan that made me back away for awhile. Financial problems can be harmful on mental health and Aquarians have a tendency to back off, want to be on their own to strengthen their resolves and that's just what I did.

Right now PoD is deep into researching her [our] family heritage by building the family tree. She has some from one cousin who started my mother's side but nothing clear of my dad's side. The most interesting I feel is my father's side of the family [so far] which I had stumbled across and wrote about it on here. One of the most disturbing facts being the age range of death, which is quite young [36-54]. The other facts is how hard to find anything about anyone is because they leave so little of themselves in written history.

Way back when, people kept written diaries, mostly men, this is how relatives kept track of their histories. I used to when I was 13 or 14 until my older sister found it and showed it to everyone and my innocent ways were ridiculed so I quit it. Sadly I wished I had kept it up as those brain cells got washed away in my foolish 20's binges or maybe it was a good thing?

With the family's health history, my health issues, not to mention friends younger than me dying lately has me re thinking about what does one leave as their last obit?

PoD has come across many a family member's mark history on my dad's side only because they did something that was noteworthy. Other than that nothing! This makes it hard to trace your family tree...harder if you have native blood and more so if you were female!

But that was in that day when there were no computers!

This blog has been surprising looked at by many people all over the world and by this people can find each other including family tree building. When I started looking into the tree I quickly ran out of sources to find anyone. Since PoD's started a week or so ago she has scored loads of info!

Right now this is as far as I can go as the rapid eye movement causes extreme nausea...;{

Not to mention a blog format I am not used to.....

This was kindly awarded to me by a faithful reader and commenter and I am now just been able to get to it...thanks to viruses attacking my computer, then me!


Was down with it [cold/virus/] all last week and have finally stopped coughing my guts out! Great AB workout! Lost 7 pounds and am now busy trying to put it back on...;(

Computer is still ill and is in the process of being replaced....


Back to the award...here are the rules:

1. Thank and link to the person who sent it....then tell them you did

Thank You!!!!! BJ Roan from [rubbishbyroan.blogspot.com]...she likes my supernatural crap stuff....:) You honor me! I wish I lived close to her too as I would like to visit their court house also!


2. Pass the award on to someone else.

I have many to add but this one changed my narrow minded way of thinking and proved to me that you can't pick a book by it's title. She was first mentioned to me by my daughter and I dismissed it because of it's title..."Snooty Primadona"...last thing I wanted was someone who had "Snooty" ideas...let alone a Primadona...;} Boy was I wrong! I have learned much from this very talented lady who has just as many life's battle scars as I do and deserves this "Stylish Award". She has a style all her own! Even an old dog like me can learn new things....thanks BJ and PrimaD [snootyprimadona.blogspot.com] for joining me and informing on life outside of my world!


3. Share 7 things about yourself.

This was a hard one as I have blabbed about a lot...;}

1. The worst thing I have ever done and have thankfully never repeated is trying to kill a baby kitten.
Before you condemn me, let me explain...
I was 11 or so at the time. I had awoken [early morning hrs] to my cat having kittens on my bed and she was killing them as she was having them! This was her first time delivery and my first time witnessing it happening! She delivered her last one [4] and I was able to save it from being killed right away by her. I figured if I cleaned it up she would like it better but she wanted nothing to do with it! What could I do? Dad and stepmother would not have responded nicely to me waking them with this problem [fact]. It wasn't doing too well either [I'm sure now there was probably something wrong with them as the mother cat never did that again] and it was barely moving. Biggest mistake was me thinking I could drown it to put it out of its misery. One has to hold it under water and feel it squirm while doing it. I couldn't! I ended up having to wake my brother, Tank and he did it for me. Something I also regret, was asking him to do it, but he was nice enough to do it for me. He was not a violent person so that had to hurt him too...sorry Tank! To this very day I have a problem with condemning something to death....EXCEPT for proven murders, serial killers, especially child killers! And bugs! Especially cannot do it by my hand...the thought of a supposedly squashed bug wiggling in a paper towel/Kleenex horrifies me!

2. Have a preference for the nonsensical stuff over what others classify as classy or "expensive". I have hand crafted [5 by me] wands in my work place...started by the first one who I show everyone as being broken and can't get their work done any faster...;} This year I added 2 -5' staffs too....with a crown....;)...yup crazy

3. When I was 10 or 11 I used to eat white onions just like they were apples. I would even sneak them up to my room...like I could hide the smell of them when eaten? Then I went through a time where I hated them! But have now come back around to eating them again...only thankfully not as an apple...;} -do prefer them raw...

4. Due to stress levels in my neck and shoulders I have worn off the bumps on my back bone around the neck. Xrays have revealed that they are all smooth. Doctors say its from intense tightening of the neck muscles rubbing them smooth. That an the arthritis.

5. Keep a diary since 1985 which consists of calendars. Each year I scribble crap on the calender of important happenings and then keep the calendar. When my Ex and I separated we argued on who got to keep the calenders...I won. Mostly because it was MY ideas to keep them in the first place.

6. March 30, 1997 dislocated elbow. Pain was so bad that I couldn't have any material between me and my arm. Sleep was a nightmare...with clothes on...even worse! Had to sleep nude! Been sleeping that way ever since!

7. Do not own or wear blue jeans! HATE THEM! Preference for soft fluffy material...for comfort. If I dream about satin....means I'm getting sick...?


Thank heavens there is only 7!


I'm sure I could have mentioned all the others as I don't have that great a following and doubt that they've read back history so I'm probably safe repeating myself...which is good for old people like me...;}



There I've done it......!


Hope I can post again soon but I am in between computers right now and things get iffy here...?

GAG ORDER IS STILL IN PLACE...?


Not that I am paranoid or not...like they [blogger demons] are monitoring my posts...;{



I think its still the viruses doing their wonderful "Gremlins" imitation on my computer! I am still having problems...can't blog when I want to and commenting has been even harder! Please have patience....I AM EXPERIENCING DIFFICULTIES!!!


I hate the words "Data Interrupted" warnings!!!



I NEED BILLYROO! [my computer guru] to come home and talk to this machine that hates me...;(



Anyways......


I have decided to start the year off with more "Darkside Zodiac" by Stella Hyde.


Most out there do not believe in the zodiac representing them and that's their choice. I just find it odd, how true they are [when one sits down and really thinks about it]. Like I said...I agree with the good stuff and now that I know about the bad side of me...I find I'm trying harder to change the ones that I feel I can change.



So......


The non-believers can stop reading right now...it will only bore you more than my stories always do...;}



Anyways....


I have already done mine, which is Aquarius and Gemini's.


Not to just pick on these ones, I will continue with the present one happening right now...Capricorn. Which is Dec 22 to Jan 20 [depending on which book you read]


I would say that I don't know too many of these people closely, so I can't say for sure whether I would agree with her on this zodiac or not. I do remember a not-so-nice, ex-sister-in-law, that it did sound a lot like...so



Remember these are NOT my words!




Capricorn is a feminine, cardinal Earth sign ruled by Saturn. It is the tenth sign on the zodiac wheel, directly opposite Cancer, and is named for the constellation Capricorn [the goat or sea goat] which bleats and backbites behind the Sun at this time of the year.

On the Darkside, this makes you a cold, cruel, petty-minded slave driver with unsuspected yet unquenchable ambition and an addiction to tightfisted penny-pinching.

Annoying habits:

Punctuality...You always arrive 30 minutes early, to impress important people and make underlings feel insecure, unless the inner goat has seized control, when you won't turn up at all because you are busy corrupting innocents.

Toothpaste...always tightly rolled from the bottom up. when its finished you unroll it, cut it open and scrape off the last smears.

Temper Gauge...0 to boiling point in one second [although you have high Latent Tetchiness levels and are easy to rile]. You never forgive a slight and, if shown disrespect, will charge at the offender and headbutt them into a ravine.

Personality...petty, parsimonious, pessimistic, mean, miserly, cruel, cold-hearted, tightfisted, negative, unforgiving...etc.

Bitch Rating...B++ You really don't have the spontaneity to bitch, since it is undignified, but you write excoriating emails and sharply worded letters to the more respected newspapers when you feel your status is being impugned. Your inner goat has no such scruples, however, especially after a few cups of black wine.

Favorite Deadly Sin...Avarice, the sophisticated version of Greed. Your inner goat goes straight for naughty but life-affirming Lust and Gluttony [goats eat anything]

Blame Your Planet...Saturn: stern, stifling and strong willed.



Again, a lot of her predictions have to be calculated with what time of day you were born to calculate everything better. This is just a general get-you-pissed-off-enough to buy the book or email me for more type of post...;(


And NO I don't know her to be pushing her book for her...just that it's a different take on Zodiac interpretation meant for entertainment.


It's my kind of weirdness that makes me do this...;}


I don't run my life by it...;}



Nor do I want to ruin yours!



Anyways...the next one up will be Pisces [Feb 20-Mar 20] which is my older sister's sign and I definitely agree with hers!



I would also like to acknowledge another award from a blogger pal, BJ Roan that I will be doing as soon as I can think of 7 things I haven't blabbed about so far...;} and post to sidebar when I can remember how to do that too...



Keeping my fingers crossed for a repeat posting.....




PS....I even managed a link....yahoo!

BLACK FRIDAY

Going shopping today [8:30 am]...gonna see whether buying new charger for camera [60.00] or get a NEW camera! Better be a good deal or the money don't leave the pocket...;)!


Gonna wear black too!






On another black note....




As per a REQUEST from a faithful follower, I am posting her DARKSIDE ZODIAC. Which is Gemini. I have relatives that are from that zodiac also, so it's an interesting read!




ALL must remember these are not MY words!

These are NOT my opinions either!

Nor do I take them to be a true read, for how would someone know all that about everyone? Everyone is brought up differently and I feel that makes a BIG  difference in your personality. Plus one also must come up with a good idea to sell books now days with the net and all!


So.....


You got a complaint, take it up with the authoress Stella Hyde.


There are some points in mine that really ticks me off and I'd like to slap her upside the head!

I do wonder how she comes by some of these thoughts and whether she has any friends left?






YOU ARE WARNED......I don't want to lose one of my friends and one of the few commentators to my blog! My family/friends knows who I am and how I feel...I would NEVER accept this at face valve!






WARNING:






"Gemini: May 22 - June 21


Gemini is a masculine mutable Air sign, ruled by the planet Mercury. It is the third sign on the zodiac wheel, directly across from Sagittarius, and is named for the Constellation, Gemini [the twins], which constantly ducks and dives behind the sun at this time of the year.
On the darkside this makes you an unreliable, roguish sociopath with a light finger and the attention span of a hyperactive mayfly."


See what I mean!


Want more....?





"Annoying Habits:


Punctuality: You're rarely late but never stay long since you are usually on your way to somewhere else that you think might be more interesting or stuffed with classier celebs.
Toothpaste: You have a shiny new electric toothbrush "borrowed" from somewhere, and toothpaste picked up from unguarded retail displays-you didn't pay for it, so why would you give a damn about how it is squeezed!
Temper Gauge: 0 to boiling point in five seconds, inventive invective, blistering bitchery, then back down again in two, mostly because your attention has wandered off. You prefer to get even, not mad.


Personality: feckless, reckless, two-faced. Brightside you is famous for your irresistible charm and sprightly wit. But you [and I] know that it's all a facade isn't it? It's all sparky patter to shift the eyes of the gullible away from what your really up to."

There is much more cause she goes on a lot.




Next...


Bitch Rating: A++. We bow to the zodiac's Bitch Queen. Your lightning rapier zigzags with such sparkling wit and style that many bitches don't know they have been slashed for at least three weeks; and your apologies are always so transparently heartfelt and sincere.


Favorite Deadly Sin: Oh, come on! Only one deadly sin? For you, the dilettante of depravity? I don't think so. You need at least four: two for each twin. What to choose? Pride, for sure, although you prefer to use its other name, Vanity [you know you look good so why not say so?]; Lust, because it is fun; Envy [why should the rich have all the nice, shiny things? Indeed, why should anybody have anything you want? And Greed. Greed is good. What's wrong with wanting it all?


Blame your planet Mercury! Mercury is a small dense busybody that scurries sycophantically around the sun in just 88 days, practically joined at the hip with our local star. It doesn't mind the heat just as long as it can be self-important in the kitchen."

A lot of her predictions have to be calculated with what time of day you were born...etc.




So Gemini....if you want more you got to leave a comment and I'll send you what else she has to say that you won't like...;{

A CHALLENGE!

A while back [May 16] I was tagged by Blue to do a meme on "10 things I've Never Bought".


The more I got to thinking about how the question was phrased made my answers to them harder!


Did it mean...



"Never bought, wanted to, but was too embarrassed to"?


Or...


"Never bought, never wanted to, hated/feared the thing"?


Or...


"Never bought because one couldn't afford to"?


Or...

"Never bought, never wanted to...EVER"?



Or like PoD would put it...


"STOP OVER-THINKING THE QUESTION"!



SO...here's my 10 reasons why I have "never bought these things and why": in no particular order [which would be wrong as it must be the more important because I thought of it first...?]...



10 Things I have never bought, wanted to [that are "BRAND NEW"] but CANT AFFORD TO!:

1. vehicle

2. house

3. motor home

4. pool

5. hot tub

6. fridge

7. stove

8. printer/plotter for the business

9. house for my daughter & her family

10. house for my son


Or



"10 things I've never bought because I hated/feared them"...so obviously I don't want...


1. cruise ship ticket...I'm afraid of dark/deep water

2. golf clubs...can't stand the sport

3. tennis rack...can't stand the sport

4. mangoes...hate the taste

5. avocados...hate the taste

6. cowboy boots...a nightmare for me to wear [I did buy a used pair for 25 cents...they weren't for me]

7. body scooters [not sure of the name of these things]...I'm afraid of anything related to the motorcycle clan so the though of standing on this two wheeled contraption with only handle bars to hang on to scares the crap out of me!

8. hot air balloon ride...AFRAID OF HEIGHTS!

9. small airplane ride...did it once [I didn't pay for the ticket... it was a [horrible] gift] I got air sick [no I didn't ralph]

10. uncooked food in a restaurant...ewwww



ENOUGH ALREADY.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLUE

My wish for you:

May your day be the


bright & happy BLUE filled with sunshine & friends


Keeping gloomy blue out!



Plus have a


Happy Mother's Day

[if you celebrate that day over there]
[you were/are a mother to Hero & Fuzzy Kids after all]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BJ ROAN
[http:/rubbishbyroan.blogspot.com/]
[http:/calistablu.blogspot.com]

MAY YOUR DAY BE FILLED WITH

PEACE & SERENITY



I wish for you...


A DAY OFF WITH NOTHING TO DO...

&

A KIND FAIRY TO "WAIT" ON YOU...