HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY....

The happiest part of this day is the fact that I gave life to 2 amazing human beings who mean more than life its self to me!!! Having grandchildren has only added to it!

Get between me and my kids/grand kids and you will see one very mad mother bear!

If anything, I would say that I raised my kids as both a mother and a father!

And YES....I will pat myself on the back for all of their GOOD traits and let you know that the BAD ones are HIS!

:)

Sadly, I cannot say Happy Mother's Day to my biological mother in person because she passed away when I was 10...;(

To say that I remember much about her...I don't! I do remember some things but not much...parents aren't that important to kids at that age, so they think.

Her passing was also a very tragic time for me, as I experienced her death through a dream and later experienced seeing her ghost through out our house. Having the dream and later seeing mom's ghost caused problems with me and my sister "Buttons"...she believed me and thought she saw her once too!

When the step mother appeared on the scene, she couldn't take my/our spooky tales and felt that I had convinced my sister that she was crazy too? Her solution was to send us both to see a psychiatrist! It took me two sessions to decide that that I hated him and wasn't going back! What I did learn from his sessions was to never tell anyone ever again about odd things that happened to me after my mom's death...buried it deep is what I did do!

The thoughts that I do remember about my mom are happily only good ones...:)

Sadly I don't feel much of a connection with her?

Our time together was a short 10 years and much of those years had to be shared with 5 other siblings! My baby years were interrupted with the arrival of my younger sister [18 mons between us], so my babyhood was even shorter.

This was also a woman who slaved for her household. I don't recall any of us ever doing house work! She even made her own soap because she had to, not because it was a hobby! We were also very poor, so she made a lot of our clothing! She had no time for kids. One statement I do remember was when I thought I was adopted [I thought I didn't look like anyone in the family...they all had brown eyes and I was the only one to have blue, etc.] was "with all you kids, do you think I want to adopt one"?

I guess birth control was expensive back then? Kind of glad about that, if you get what I mean...;)

The woman that did spend a lot of time in my life [52] and made some major changes, was my Dad's fourth wife. This made her my step mother!

The EVIL step-mother!

There were times that I compared my life with the tale of Cinderella!

The step mother also had a daughter whom my Dad later adopted after their marriage. Our earlier years together as sisters was fairly rocky in the beginning but later has improved with maturity.

The step mother was an experience that will never go away and did make me part of the hard worker that I am today!

This was also a hard woman that had to live a hard life herself and knew no better way to teach her life's lessons. She grew up with a father that molested her, a mother that didn't care, a lover that abandoned her with their unborn baby and between all of them they created a very hard person!

Looking back now, those were my growing up years and were very important that a strong hand be used. Sadly, the compassion that had been lacking in her up bring showed towards us kids!

Her daughter was a different story! She ended up the spoiled one! Something she wishes had been different if she had only been shown the same up bringing! Her life was the bad side as a teenager and lots of mistakes were made.

The time that I did enjoy with my step mother was during my 20's while I lived in Edmonchuk. We did some crazy things together and had some great laughs so it wasn't all bad. Those were the years that I was proud to call her mom!

I moved out of the province after my first child and haven't been back to the old home front since. Not because of her, mind you. That was my ex's doing.

The step mom and I remained reasonably close throughout her remaining years. Buttons [who also moved far away] and I always made a point to visit whenever we were able to, more so as her health faded. Many a time we would rush to her bedside with the urgings of our sister [her daughter] with the dire warnings of impending death, only to have her rally to health.

She passed a year & 2 months before Buttons did!

Our step mother's will devastated both her and I. Not that we were expecting anything [she had left us something before she died] but thought to be remembered by last words of love!

We weren't!

I have never seen the will as all was left to HER daughter! Including her last thoughts!

But we figured if there were words on it for us, she would have let us see the will. She didn't! I won't ask, as I feel there is something on it that none of us should see? She says that step mother wasn't in her "sane-of-mind" but then that would make the will null & void?

For that... I cannot, in my mind, give out the days wishes for her easily!

She got her wishes when she was a good step mother and she should be happy for that and sad that she ended her well wishes to us in the will...as it made both of us feel unloved! It devastated Buttons more than me!

Petty as that may sound... I feel mother's day wishing is an EARNED honor!

As for my biological mother...it was her duty to stay healthy and not leave her family to the hands of others! Something I am trying to do for MY kids!

BillyRoo has already called me [6:30am] and wished me a Happy Mother's Day on his way out the door to work. He never forgets and makes sure to at least call...that's my gift! His gift to me is to stay safe and healthy!

PoD's gift is given to me almost daily by all the things she has to do for me...is MUCHLY appreciated!

THANK YOU BOTH OF YOU!!!!!!!

As for the man that was the father of my children...he didn't believe in thanking me for being the mother of his children.

I had to be content with "your not my mother so why do you expect a gift or wishes"?

Anyways....on with life

Yesterday was my first town-wide garage sale and was able to pick up a Mother's Day present for my daughter [for giving me grand kids...;)]...a ceramic 18" high Buddha to go with the pagoda that I bought [birthday last year] for her flower bed. I also gave her hanging pots for some vine types. Didn't find much for myself [tight budget] and was mostly a kids/baby-stuff sales. Did manage to get the son-in-law something for his collections that he will get on his birthday and something little for the grand kids.

Did get to enjoy it with an old friend that "Sales" with me yearly to that place...we continue our conversations like we had just left off from the last sales. It's so wonderful to have a friend that doesn't cling to me nor me to her...:)!

Am suffering a bit today from all the getting in/out of a truck and walking...the calf muscles are moooing from their lack of exercise. Seems all the walking helped only a LITTLE bit...;(

Must get in better shape!

The weather did not co-operate and it was a chilly 3 hrs but fun never-the-less!

Today seems to be continuing as the clouds this morning look like they are going to hang around.

Might snuggle under the covers and watch some movies...doing nothing sounds great.


ALL YOU MOTHERS out there...that deserve it


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!


AND that does include BOTH my moms cause they did do the best of their abilities no matter how much I wished it to have been better...cause I know there are many many worse ones that I could have been stuck with instead!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!

I would like to thank Poopsie for my Birthday cake...

Perfect for the Queen of Halloween...except where's the crown...;}

Not bad for an old witch who is now entering her 60th year.....:}

But for now, I will claim the 59 years of "being on the right side of the grass"!



On Poopsie's blog, she is the originator of "True Blue Colors" and usually has pictures of these fantastic cakes made in England. I would like to borrow some of her pics for my other birthday wishes...



My grand son, JD is celebrating his 11th and I would like to give him this one...

 

I know he'd rather it be this one...

But he'll have to wait til he's 18....sorry kiddo....;}

Happy Birthday J!

My two nieces from Coronation are coming on Saturday to drop off my wedding decor [from Aug wedding] and to visit...so we'll celebrate the cake/gifts then....;}



The other birthday wish is for my [Ex] brother-in-law in Edmonchuk. He's a world traveler, so I thought this  one would impress him like it did me...

Happy 71st Birthday REM!

Hope we all have a Happy Day!

My Tarot Card for today is...."the High Priestess"...producer of dreams, the driving force behind dreams!

My Cat Comfort Card is....."Catapult"...Launch yourself forward. Go for it!

Just for Poopsie....thanks for the great cake photos [ LYS ]

A NICE SURPRISE!

PoD and I were gifted with two free tickets to our town's Wildlife Federation's Annual Awards & Supper this Saturday.


Just a little thank you for all of the stuff that we do for them...:)


What a nice way to end an otherwise boring working day!


Too bad I don't like wild meat! Was promised normal food also...


All wild animals are safe from me! I neither want to kill them, have mounted on the wall, or stuff them or any other gross things.


Not sure what the awards are for...I've never attended one of these functions before.


I just like the thought of a free supper and entertainment!


That's what will get me there...


Unless there's a snow storm!


A VERY HAPPY THOUGHT FOR TODAY......:)!

Hopefully..."Never to be Repeated"

Thank You For Being There For Us!

Hard to believe that it's the middle of March right now! I must wish all of my loyal fans a happy and lucky day! No history lessons here...look it up yourselves ;)

This month has been a crazy time for me and I am completely exhausted from all of the play crap! Yesterday the set finally left my building and it's now where it belongs...on stage! Props are all finished and there's nothing left for me to do but herd the cats [stage managing]. I would really like to thank Wilma for stepping in and helping me with the "blackout" sequence near the end of the play. I personally think that it should have been the director's job to direct that part and not left for me to do! May the lucky of the Irish be shinning on you girl!

Things haven't been going to well with the play? Some actors still don't know their lines and dress rehearsal is Thursday. Prompting has been a real chore! This play has had it's problems...one actress got a new job and had to quit. The replacement hasn't had the same length of time to learn her lines completely yet, but is managing. One hides her script on the set and can't seem to read it properly? The date for the festival didn't give us much time to practice, yet some decided to take a weeks vacation? The light/sound guy had to miss the whole month of Feb and should be showing up now to practice his part, but has gone missing? The director is doing that job while still giving directions [they should be done by now]. This is one play I wished I'd stayed out of! I guess I'm getting too old for these kind of problems? It's time for me to retire completely!

There's been good and bad going on at my shop right now. The bad part is I am barely making it...my main support hasn't been doing much, so the income isn't in coming...just minor stuff from the town's people. The good part was...it gave me LOTS of time to work on the DONATION stuff. I've had to tightening the belt soooo much that I'm starting to feel skinny [not]! Seems the "Year of the Rat" is truly going the way that was predicted for me...[slow times a work] when the money [that's supposed to arrive] does come in, will have to go towards paying outstanding bills [it will be spent right away]! Like I was told by a commenter..."be thankful that I have a cracker to have crap on"! So those who see me grinning...know that I am "just bearing it"...cause I do have a cracker to crap on! Here's hoping that's ALL of the crap that befalls me! Having great children helping me out during these hard times, makes me even more thankful... for they ARE TRULY my "pot of gold" at the end of this rainbow!

THIS IS FOR THEM [& Wilma too]...
The shop is still decorated for St. Patrick's Day and normally I change it up for Easter but this year the Easter stuff will stay right in it's box. It's too soon for me to want to do anything decor wise in the shop and seeing as it's mostly for my benefit [no customers to see it]...it's just too much work for this tired old body! Besides...I still have Grad decorations to work on!!!

Maybe I'll find a bunny hiding in the shamrocks?SO....I'm going to get dressed in my green colored clothes and go looking for that rainbow...do they have rainbows with snow?

Just MAYBE the "Luck of the Irish" will shine on me......SOON?

MY MISERIES...UPDATE

MY ROOF ON MY SHOP/HOME IS FINALLY FIXED?

Yesterday PoD, Trebor, BillyRoo managed to get my roof leaks fixed...I hope! It's going to take some rain to see if it really worked or not.

PoD, Trebor and BillyRoo were the ones that did all of the work...I was the "gofor person" and "chief babysitter"!

We were promised that the roofing material would arrive early...but it ended up not getting here until noon time! When it did finally arrive the kids got to find out how heavy the rolls were!

The forecast was for rain later in the day so the kids had to work fast in order to get it done in time. No one in our group had ever "roofed" before so it was a learning experience for all.

Being of limited financial resources, I went the cheapest way possible and we used "Rolled Roofing" with LOTS of tar. Rolled roofing is an experience in it's self! It is pretty windy in our part of the world and rolling out 35" x 33' x 1/4" thick material [to lay it down straight] turns it into "sails in the wind"! The kids learned quickly to roll it out, tar it then nail it down as they went. On a bumpy surface the strips had a tendency to go askew! I didn't care how it looked in the end because it was up too high for anyone to see what it looked like and my main focus was on stopping the leaks...not cosmetic values! They were able to get it completely re-roofed and partly flashed [metal strips that helps the keep the edges from lifting] before it got dark out [8:30 pm]!

Today they have to finish off the flashing, trim the excess roofing material away and cover the other roof addition that attaches to my other building. The other building won't get done until later down the road...it's not in as bad a shape as the main building.

The rain that was fore casted never came! Until it does rain I won't know if our "cure" worked or not! With the amount of tar that they used I really can't see it leaking...but not to be too negative...with the way my luck has been going lately...it will probably leak!

As it is all of my kids, including Trebor, can add a new shingle to their list of job abilities..."Roofing Experts"! These guys/girl worked real hard and suffered greatly from aching backs, sore arms and "roof rash" knees by the time they were done!

THANKS KIDS...FOR A JOB WELL DONE!!!

A BIG THANK YOU TO MY EX....he spent 2 hrs on the furnace and finally it's fixed. Seems all the off & on of the furnace knocked the fan out of wack making it go all screwy.

I am definitely not a Jill of that trade!

Although I did learn how to change the furnace filter...man was it filthy...no wonder I have sinus problems! I have 2 furnaces so changing the other filter will have to wait until another day when I am feeling better.

It is snowing right now and I've had to go out in it for stuff to repair the furnace...so now I feel like crap. PoD's tired from lack of sleep...her power was off all last night...so we both need rest today. I need to gain more energy so seeing as I am the boss we are closing for the rest of the day. Anything that needs to be done can be done tomorrow...hopefully the fog has lifted from the old brain by then?